I am still thinking about Easter.   It came and went too quickly.  It’s almost like I missed it.   In some aspects I did.  The highlight was enjoying dinner with my sister and family and homemade banana pudding.   And it was over.  This year I was unable to attend a church service or an Easter play.  I just couldn’t make it happen.  Over these last few months because of sickness, I have missed Easter, Christmas, and New Years.   I know I sound like I’m whining, but I’ll get to a point … For the last year, my normal life and routine has been interrupted by unexpected illness, doctors, surgeries, recoveries and treatments.  My life has been on pause.  My norm has been on pause.  My schedule has been on pause.    But when I look at people around me … Life is moving forward full speed ahead.   Oh it can’t be helped I don’t think, because this is the world we live in.   Everything is fast paced, moving forward, accelerating at high speeds … Until it’s not.  So I would like to say, press the pause please.  Slow it down. I’ve got some serious catching up to do.  Holidays to celebrate, work to get to. And vacations to take.  Not to mention getting my foot back in the church doors.  

And about church, I will just say this, God has been with me right here in my home, the whole time.  I’ve been fortunate to watch the services from my church on DVD, while at home.  But it is not the same as worshipping together with people that you want to be with every week.   Going to church is not just about putting on your best clothes and pretending to be something you are not.  Going to church is about sharing a moment of your life with a community of people who are just like you and me, with problems and all kinds of drama, who come together for a moment to experience fellowship with one another and with the Lord God who created us, Jesus who saves us.  That is totally random, but totally important.  The enemy works hard to keep people away from the doors of church, but the church is not about ‘those people’ it is about ‘us’.  It’s not those people that Jesus died to save…he died to save us all! John 3:16.  So did I mention that I miss going to church? 🙂

So just in case you thought I was just having a pity party… As I type these words, I hear ….

“The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want

He leads me beside still waters, he restores my soul”

The psalmist shared some paused moments with His Lord and shepherd.  Comforting words. Wherever you are in life.  Whatever the season may be…

“The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want

He leads me beside still waters, he restores my soul”

My head may feel like the world is spinning out of control.  But deep inside my soul resonates that the Lord himself, my Lord and my shepherd is in control, even the paused moments in life.   He leads me by the waters that are calm and still, peaceful and restful.  Trust me, pausing was not on my agenda, I have kicked and screamed in more ways than you can imagine … But just ‘what if’ once He presses ‘play’ again, I can look back and say like the psalmist, “He restored my soul… Surely goodness and mercy will follow me all the days of my life… And I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.”  

Dear Lord, restore … Not just my soul, but all things that the enemy tries to rob from us.  

4 thoughts on “Press.the.pause.please

  1. Beautifully written. Love you my friend, Stephanie

  2. Candy, it amazes me how the Lord is not only touching you through this time in your life, He continues to touch through you. This is a heart spoken blog. I am excited that Steph, Jesse Lee, and I are in your “Play,” time in the future. Through you God has allowed us to know the power of friendship through your experience and the spirit of a true fighter. You were missed at church and at the Carico family get together, you would have killed it in the kickball game we had, I sure didn’t (LOL). Still carrying you in my thoughts and prayers each day, your forever friend, -homer :o)

  3. pansy blackwell says:

    Their are times in our life we are all made to pause. At first we wonder why me, then we begin to rewind our lives and look back. Its those times we realize what is really important and who really counts in our lives. So when the play button is hit. Life after the pause is more full and free and has more purpose than ever imagined.Greater things ahead than behind! Cannot wait to see where God is going to take you in your ministry for Him. Love you

  4. Just like when you were my Sunday school teacher, I still enjoy hearing what is on your heart and mind. Thanks for your refreshing words, Candy.

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